I am horrible. I haven’t updated in so long. Haven’t had much to say really. So that’s probably why. Wait, no…I’m supposed to be switching servers and I’m waiting for the switch. Trying to get a lower price on the server, but it’s not happening. Well, they gave me a price, but I still can’t afford it, unless more people buy, which isn’t happening at this moment in time. I swear it…new quote: “I succeed at failing”. It’s days like this where I just want to leave the internet. But I realize that if I do that, I’m going to miss web design, and probably go completely nuts.
So yeah, that’s my explanation.
I went to an orientation for another program that can help me find a job, go back to school, and stuff like that. Since I want to do both, I’m very much interested in going. I need to set a visit date, where I can visit for the whole day, and get a feel. A few people who are in this day treatment with me went for the visit and said that they enjoyed it. It’s worth a try. I’m trying to get the fuck outta this program by August. We do nothing over there in day treatment. We have one group that last 45 minutes that revolves around mental illness, which I need not to hear about anymore. I got enough of that shit while I was inpatient and in the partial hospital. Then we get a 15 minute break where we recreate. Then we have another group about fricken medications with this doctor who told me to do my websites “on paper” (dumbass). Then we have lunch. One hour, and the food is shit (fucking sandwiches. On wheat bread), so I look forward to going out to eat. Yesterday I had a chicken fajita wrap. Costs me about 6 bucks, but it filled me. Then we have another group.
I probably wouldn’t have a problem if 1)the groups weren’t so big–I have problems with large groups of people. Which is also why I had to quit Target, or 2) the groups were actually fun. We talk about the same shit..about mental illness. We’ve all established that we have one. Maybe you want to learn more, but I’m actually pretty sick of it. There’s only one or two people I speak to in that whole group. It’s not that I don’t want to, but a lot of them are much older than me. I’m not the youngest (I think the youngest is 20), but there’s a 50-year-old there. We can’t relate…at all. And it’s kinda scary.
Eh, whatever. I’m counting down till August. Then my narrow black ass is out.
All right, so I bet you’re wondering about ProjectSEX. I have ideas for it. Well, for starters, I only got one name suggestion. Wait, no…I got more, but they’re from the same person. But only one stuck out like a sore thumb…for lack of better term. So, the new name for ProjectSEX is now…
Project 739. She decided to keep the “Project”, and added the 739. Had she not mentioned what 739 meant, then I would be as lost as you are right now. But I’ll tell you what it means.
739. Look on your phone. At the letters. You see what it spells if you dial out that number? You may not think it’s clever, but I do, lol. For those who can’t figure it out, 739=SEX. So if it becomes a success, I might buy a domain name (project739.com) for it. But until then, I’ll have it on a subdomain.
As for my other secret project, I haven’t even touched it since forever. I had a layout for it, but I might scrap it.
I ended up closing Entropy. I didn’t want to, but I gave a one-week ultimatum–if it doesn’t become at least semi active within a week, then I would have no choice than to close it. Remember that quote up there? “I succeed at failing”? That refers to this venture as well. I can’t get an active board. So I’m giving up on message boards. I love owning one, but it seems to me that unless I get some really super active members, really talented theme makers, and the like, it just won’t stand out. So…yeah.
That’s pretty much it. Can’t think of anything else to say. Sorry to be all depressing and shit, but I’m bummed about a lot of shit.